Friday, August 8, 2008

Here and Now: 8-8-08

Today is a beautiful day. There is a hint of autumn in the air... something about the light, low humidity, and breeziness all give way to some Fall foreshadowing. I am very ready for the change of seasons. This summer has been quite a time warp for me. Some days have been as slow as molasses while others seem to collapse on top of each other like a shuffled deck of cards. Now I finally have a day like today when I know the EXACT date and day of the week. Silly? Yes, but to me, oh so gratifying.

My daughter is just about 3 months old now and the haze of fatigue, rattled nerves, and unpredictability is beginning to lift. I am starting to feel more like a person and less like a walking teat. Now I am on the cusp of finding the balance between my autonomy and her dependency. I guess I'll be doing this juggling act for the next several years of our lives. Welcome to Motherhood- a role that I didn't exactly sign up for but, nevertheless, a state of being that I am trying my best to embrace.

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